I Can Hear His Amazing Voice!! Really!!!

OK, I haven't been here a while, and a TON of stuff has happened between the Lord & I!!

My strongest desire is to be in His Presence 24/7, and hear His directions EVERY minute of the day...

So last night we're praying (hubby & I) and I'm repenting of all the stuff of the day, and self, and then worshiping Him in the Spirit, and in the quietness of the evening I get this impression of "How much do I really desire to be in His Presence?" and "Do I desire sleep, more than my desire to be in His Presence?" "Do I desire food & water, more than my desire to be in His Presence?" and I get this revelation of how much I'm telling the Lord that I desire His Presence, and yes, with my mouth I have spoken that I have surrendered everything to Him to be in His Presence, no matter what the cost.... but I haven't really been SHOWING Him how much I desire it! The only things that I have shown Him outwardly, is by switching off the tv (only watching 1 or 2 things here or there), and being obedient to his nudging us to leave the church.

So I start declaring to Him, that I do desire His Presence more than food, sleep or water and tell Him that I will not have either until that prayer is answered (ha, ha).

With that being said, off I go to bath, and I'm just praising Him and telling Him that He is my living water, and daily bread, and my rest.

I get out the bath, and I have this overwhelming thirst for physical water! But I tell Him again, He is my Living Water, and I knew that I needed to read the passage on the woman at the well with Jesus, so I ask the Lord where in the Word is that passage, because I know it's probably in all 4 gospels, but had no clue exactly where.. not even the chapter. I hear a voice in my thoughts, saying John 4:13 -- and I think to myself, oh boy, here we go again, it's just my voice or my thought and I'm setting myself up for disappointment again. But I look it up anyway....

"Jesus answered and said unto her, Whosoever drinketh of this water shall thirst again: 14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life."

I fell on my knees in Awe of Him! He didn't just say... check out John chapter 4..... He SPECIFICALLY said 4:13!!!!

Now I know this is not new for most of you and you probably hear Him like this all the time, but for me, this is a HUGE breakthrough!

Praise YOU FATHER! Thank YOU so much!

Oh, and while I'm on my knees, I notice I'm not thirsty anymore!

I creep into bed still in Awe of Him, and not sure if I should sleep, but I know He had blessed me with His Presence, and that I could get some sleep!

The next morning I don't want to eat or drink because I still want more of His Presence, so I'm sitting outside by the pool, and I say to the Lord in my thoughts, "I'm sorry to say this Lord, but I just don't get how you could have the time to spend the whole day filling me with Your thoughts in my head" So immediately He gives me another scripture, Psalm 139, which I know so well, and I think,

"Yeah I know that one well, Lord," but still I sense Him urging me to check it out.. so I get the KJV, which I had never read Psalm 139 in KJV and it's blessing me so much, and I get to verse 17:

"How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! 18 (If) I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee."

FATHER, You are amazing me more & more each day! I yearn for More of YOU, and I know that More is coming! I so desperately want my cup to be completely Full of YOU and gushing through me to share with others! Thank YOU so much for opening my eyes & ears & heart! Thank YOU Father, in Jesus Name, Amen.

What do I put first before my Saviour?

In April this year, I read a book called "I dared to call Him Father" a testimony of a muslim woman who heard the voice of the LORD and gave up everything to follow Him.
Daily she heard His voice, and sensed His Presence with her ALL the time.

There were a few moments where He withdrew His Presence and she would almost go into a flat panic, desperate for His Presence and the sense of knowing He is near...

Oh, how I longed for a relationship like that with HIM! I've been a Christian for about 16 years, and hardly ever could I say I sensed His presence or heard His voice.
Whenever I've brought up the subject of longing for more of Him and hungering for His presence, others like me would quickly use the scripture of Jesus talking to Thomas when he needed to see Jesus for himself:

John 20:29

Jesus said to him, "Thomas, because you have seen Me, you have believed. Blessed [are] those who have not seen and [yet] have believed."

So I would put those hunger feelings aside and try to press on while not knowing His voice or not knowing HIM at ALL. But at last my eyes have been opened to the TRUTH! He does EXPECT me to know His voice!

John 10:27

"My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me.

But I knew I had tons of worldly stuff to deal with. We can't hear His voice, if we are distracted by tv & movie addictions, and food addictions, and and and....

Well, the first thing to go was the t.v.(!) Oh we thought we had it under control, and were selective with what we watched... well, just try going for 1 full week with not putting that telly on!
I was just coming out of a 2 day food fast and decided to watch Idols (the only program I "allowed" myself to watch!) and after a few minutes I felt a heavy conviction of the Holy Spirit that this was NOT ok.
My Abba Father is grieved at how we've been elevating people and placing them on the center stage. The audience & fans go banana's and scream & lift their hands in adoration when their idol comes on stage. And that includs the judges, they are highly esteemed celeb's that have been idolized just as much. For the first time I actually sensed or felt the grief of the Holy Spirit and it was not comfortable. And it wasn't difficult to switch it off... fast!!

But this is getting longer than I thought, so much has happened since that happened about 5 months ago!

To be continued.....